GAZE UPON THE STAR

I’m just a dreamer, in this shattered golden land I walk, with the sandman by my side. Tiptoed along the edges of the fairies’ enchanting forest, listening to their fluttering wings as they sashayed and dance on the glimmer of sunlight, shone down protruding through leaves and branches, contented facade and smiling sensation and the harmony goes by. I gaze upon their beauty as they flew past me, little creatures of magic.

I rode down the golden valley, on a magnificent workhorse.  With its mane of bright red and eyes black as the night. Its thunderous hooves shatters the ground with such force, it trembled the whole land. I sigh of its power. The evening smile as I sit in by the campfire. Little ember sparks and flew off into the sweet scent of the air. I lie down on the earth and gaze upon a single star that shines the brightest. She made my heart warm and I wander into the land of dreams.

 

 

TESTAMENT OF THE FOOLISH

In those days of old they ask for enlightenment

To seek their redeemer to save their hide

Unleashing their part into play

To this day we will never comprehend

 

Here is the deceiver who came into being

Like a clock his mind kept working

To make a living out of prophecy

And to this day they follow

Do you ever realize your ways of existence?

Made from the mind and into naught

This is the moment you will not recognize

A tribute of the thoughtless

 

When will you ever know?

What you’re doing is nothing but a lie

This is the time you’re in for now

When nothing is what it seem

Stagnant... Moving forward with my star

I don’t know why I’m into this stagnant life; it should be at my age that I’m having a job and a wife, with two kids the most. But that’s just… you know, simple living. Without any dreams to pursue, just seeing life as it is, it’s bleak. I was in that category. And yet, I’m still here. God must have a reason for this life of mine. Till I found a star, no… it’s not from that Stardust movie (ha ha you’re thinking about it aren’t you? I wish).So now I’m living at a slow pace, I don’t know if luck had anything to do with it. I was just thinking, with her, I can do everything now. But still it’s a slow velocity and towards what I want to achieve, in this life.

Do you want your ambition to come true? When I was in primary school, I had a dream to be a soldier, in which I did became one, but it wasn’t supposed to be what I wanted. I had troubles here and there; I started to see some flaws within the administration system. Instead of being pressurized to the maximum, I took a big step to resign. Within that time range, I discovered another talent, I used to think it was just another hobby of mine, as it grew larger, I became rebellious, and I wanted to make this thing come true. It’s my voice. My mother claimed that I could sing by the age of eight. I couldn’t remember that time I was a kid so to speak. Within my moment with the army I had joined numerous talent contest, some of which I became one of the finalist. The other contestants didn’t have the same idea as I did. I’m loud, I’m pitched high and I was ready to take it on. Then I was turned down by the fact that people around here doesn’t want a rocking soul sound, all they want was soft and sweet like candy. Well what do you expect? I was fuming mad. But all these were an experience to me that different people have different opinion. And so I went on, creating bands as I go on with my life, some were hard core, some were slow rock, and most of the time… METAL. I thought I was one of them.

Time and times again I slowly realized I can do all sorts of thing in singing, well… maybe not all. I don’t do rap. I tried, I just can’t. There are some things in life in which you cannot do at all. You can call it my weakness, but my strong point was even larger. I gain some attention from audiences that I meet, saying I should do this or do that, I can take criticism too. This made me realize that what I wanted to do in my life, this… normal life. This is the next step in which I am about to take, and nobody is going to stop me, I have my voice, I have my skill, I’m willing to learn and I’m ready to take on the world. This is my time now.

And with that angel star in my life, I can do anything. I love my star.

You know, being a musician… or a vocalist on my part, it’s not as easy as it seems, I’ve been told that a singer is the front man of a band, well I know that as well as everybody who is in a band, but not when it comes to a band that is so multitalented, so influenced with the music around them, regional or international. Being a singer actually control the whole entire situation, for the audience, and those who are the backbone supporting you, for example, mainly, the drummer. His/her job is not only playing the beat, but as the main importance when are you gonna cue in your song, the break, and cueing out of the music. I was given a lecture by my drummer, I have to listen, relax and alert at the same time, know where the song starts and how it ends. Somewhat I was exposed to how a singer should be like in a real talented group… to control such group one has to be flexible, adding up some tunes from the original melodies so people can hear that this is how we play it, how one can sing differently from the rest. This is what it means to climb to another level. I often wonder sometimes whether this is my calling, instead of being a worker ant. This is where I suppose to be, on a stage where people come and listen, enjoyed and to relieve stress. In all my journey of life being a singer is just a leisure pursuit, or so I thought. It never comes across in my mind that this is where my happiness is.

Maybe it’s a tough job being a singer, but if that’s where I’s assume to be, if this profession makes me happy, it’s all about grabbing the chances, and I’m taking it. This is where I am. No matter how hard it takes.