Even as of today I feel so distraught and feeling empty without you by my side, but I am what I am. I shall fight this alone till the day I meet you again and stop my fighting to retire, to a better place with you.

This feeling that burn within me is nothing compared to what I had before. A reaction so deep that you can never imagine, even if my limbs torn apart, the care I have for you, will never change. For this is the only one just for me, I tell myself, this is my woman.

I will not give in.

I will not give up.

This is my promise to you, that I will cherish you forever with all my life. All these times of searching for the one that is right for me has gone dim, you came into my life like a brand new star. Each time we spent together is like a new adventure. Now, the real adventure begins. What's in front of me in unclear and uncertain, it could be treacherous, sorrowful or pain, but i shall endure, i have made up my mind.

This is for our own future.

I have been told that the technology is advancing every single minute of every day. I was trying to find something in this world, such as finding money and doing work on the computers just to make money, as such as blogging or internet marketing. If I was taught more on computers, I would've made some; knowledge about the internet has grown over the years, now that the internet marketing has been introduced. I find it hard to understand that a guy like me would do this kind of business and I know it's never too late to learn about it. But lately I had this feeling that it’s not my field of expertise. Just imagine nowadays you can see the other side of the world with just a click of a button. You can see, yes...

 

Here comes the question, can you actually feel?

 

The difference of the air you want to smell from the other side of the world?

 

To taste their water?

 

To hear their language?

 

Understand their culture first hand?

You would think that just by clicking would be enough for your curiosity. It all seems good to have business within your fingers (meaning to say, you type, send emails, getting quotations online and so forth) but you're still staying in one place at one time. Where is all the business where it would require you to run around, meet people, and have a good talk over coffee (instead of chatting with them, although it might seem to be a good idea)? Where is the courtesy to greet them by shaking their hands and all of those that would make a good business?

 

we are advancing through a modern age of society where people are in the comfort of their home, yes it is true, comfort, is it comfortable enough to deteriorate your health in that comfort zone too? "You can have your own exercise gym at home!" so sayeth the advertisement guy on T.V. But a good exercise to keep you healthy and smart at the same time is by having another person with you, to my opinion of course, how do you feel when you're doing your work out alone; does it really feel that good? Running on a tread mill with music in your ears or on TV. right in front of you. With that being said, is that your real happiness?

 

It seems that the term and feeling of "True Happiness" has become a product for companies around the world, to be sold off in little bottles of pills and supplements; true... it'll boost up our level of health to some degree, but where was the hard work to get to that point? With your sweat and your mind. Nowadays...you want to be happy? you click a button, you buy online and pop a pill or two, the quick easy way.

 

The joys of Gundam should always be shared. If you’re not a fan of the Gundam, then I guess you just don’t like super awesome mechs. The manga master is getting a high quality treatment with the announced tour of a platinum figurine. Bandai estimates the full-on platinum Mobile Suit Gundam figurine at a value of $250,000. 

Gundam Fix Platinum measures in at 5-in. tall and 3-lbs. The tiny mech was created by a joint venture between Bandai and Ginza Tanaka. While the figure is being used to promote platinum at BASELWORLD 2007, a jewelry show held in Switzerland, the real intent to is to expand Gundam’s name recognition worldwide. 30 years after it’s first appearance in Japanese anime and there are still people who don’t know the wonders of Gundam. We live in a shocking world. 

Beginning April 12 the platinum Gundam will be on display in Basel, Switzerland. Soon after it will return home to Japan. Presumably to fight and protect very small cities, and teach of the horrors of war while looking spiffy the entire time. 

SO if anyone has this $250,000 gundam, take a picture of its joints! I heard it's flexible too...

the things I do

I am a demon. I have been living in this old earth for five hundred centuries. I have seen continuous battles, never-ending political discussions and the terror caused by humans… in my own personal point of view; they are doing a much better job than me. Truthfully speaking I was sent to earth to cause utter destruction towards human beings, but during the late thirteenth centuries I realized that there’s no point of me doing this. I was better off disguising myself as a human farmer and watched the world go by. I witnessed the first gun powder being produced, back then it was just spears, swords, shields and my personal favorite weapon, battle axes.

Sigh… those were the days, nowadays it’s the one who has more information wins the battle. The newer demons are much more complicated than my breed before. We were ruthless, battle hardened and trained, in every value of warfare even before Sun Tzu ever produced his philosophy of war. Now I am standing in this luxurious office of a 70 storey building, watching over the horizon, wondering to myself, was there ever anything left in my task that I failed to go back to where I belong. The human evolution still continues to strive to its best. I see people wander into the darkness of their own demise. My inner sense tells me that these people down there, they have their hopes and dreams, some still waiting to flourished, some are shattered, some are working hard to make it happen, “Heh… he’s gonna take awhile to make his dreams happen”.

I chuckled to myself, and a toast to them. Yes, as a monster, a demon, I can see dreams, their desire, it’s what I was designed to do, living their dreams, then slowly or in an instant, crush it. But why bother? They’re capable of doing it themselves already. This so called human pleasure of sex and entertainment is enough to make me happy for this lifetime; I couldn’t care less about their war. I’m just happy...

The night

The night has fallen; its darkness consumed my loneliness, 

And my desperation grew 

longing to be in your arms. 

Oh my saccharine sorrow 

where must the heart lies?

 

In the warm organs of my body 

where it is placed physically? 

Or in a place so warm and bright, 

caressed in your embrace?

Damnation this cruel intention of silence!!

Making me weak, procrastinating 

within every second, the minute, the hours, the days.

Just to be in your loving grace…

Dear love, hold my heart dear, hold it tight,

Let my warmth be your strength

in dreams throughout your slumber in the night.

Share my tears of sadness and joy…

Heaven hear my prayers!!

Let my love hold me, guide me, teach me,

No matter how,

Let her guidance be my light 

through this darkest hour,

Let her teaching be my path to righteousness.

Let her hold me so I will not be lost

in old ancient earth we call home,

For I love her so very true,

for I love her so deep…

For I love her for all eternity.